Taking psych meds from GCSE to graduation: Tay's story
Medications don’t always work the same for everybody. After some trial and error, and with the help of her psychiatrist, Tay was able to find medications that worked for her.
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I’m Tay, I’m 21 years old and have been taking mental health medication since I was 16.
I have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and borderline personality disorder, as well as an eating disorder and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). At the age of 13, I began to struggle with my mental health. By the age of 16, I had tried four types of therapy to help.
After a serious crisis, my psychiatrist decided it was time to intervene on a clinical level. I assumed that medication would rid me of the crippling depression that was ruining my life. At first, I was put on fluoxetine. My father read the information leaflet given with the tablets and highlighted the important things for me to read over, including negative side effects, such as suicidal ideation. Unfortunately, my mood did not lift. In fact, the medication had no effect on me whatsoever - positive or negative.
I was then put on something similar called citalopram. Despite several adjustments to the dosage, again I felt no effect.
I wondered if there was something wrong with my brain. Was my depression so deep rooted that it could not be cured?
Then I discovered that there were many different medications which work in many different ways. I was put on a different type of antidepressant called duloxetine. This was an SNRI as opposed to an SSRI. The drug had no effect until I was on the highest dose, which lifted my mood and motivation; I became less suicidal and depressed. However, for the first time I suffered negative side effects. For the first week after I started taking it, and after dosage increases, I had extreme nausea. My doctor prescribed me medication to treat this and it soon subsided.
At the same time, I was put on an antipsychotic called quetiapine, which acted as a mood stabiliser and a sedative to help me sleep. Again, the medication had no effect until I was put on a high dosage. Although duloxetine did help me, it didn't make my depression go away. It only lifted me from my lowest point and maintained my depression at a less severe level, which was easier to manage.
After 12 months on medication, I had a very bad relapse and my medication was changed again. My doctor took me off duloxetine and put me on venlafaxine. This drug seemed like a miracle drug to me. It really helped manage my depression and I was no longer suicidal or self-harming. Although the drug has helped mentally, it has, however, impacted my physical health.
Combined with the quetiapine, I gained a lot of weight and have acquired a mild form of tachycardia. This means my pulse is almost always over 100 and increases quite rapidly when I go from stationary to moving.
After some time on venlafaxine, I became suicidal again and was very upset because I thought this drug was working well for me. My psychiatrist appreciated this and changed me to the highest dose - because it had worked for me before on that dose, perhaps it would work again. The higher dose has helped. I have been taking medication for five years now, and I face the prospect that I will probably be taking it for the rest of my life. I have just graduated from university, and I know that I probably wouldn’t have finished my degree without medication easing my symptoms.
I do not know if it is medication which has helped me or the considerable amount of therapy I have received over the past five years. Maybe it's both.
My mental health has improved, yet it is still not perfect. It is up and down, but I have accepted that these disorders are permanent and are something I will have to live with by getting my prescription every month.
Author: Tay, 21
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