Starting out on fluoxetine
It was strange for me to have to take a pill each day to make me feel even an inch better, but I was willing to try.
For a while after I started taking the medication, my symptoms seemed to get worse, to the point where I felt so weak I couldn’t do anything. These symptoms included extreme fatigue, nausea, difficulty concentrating, weakness, anxiety, restlessness and sleep problems.
After I’d been taking the meds for about six weeks, I started noticing a difference - and my boyfriend noticed too. I was less angry and tired, and felt able to go out and do different things.
My mood still continued to be low as I was going through an extremely difficult time anyway. Negative impulsive thoughts were still quite frequent and vivid in my mind, but I tried very hard to put these aside to try and focus on feeling better in myself.
After about six months, I stopped taking medication because I wasn’t feeling much benefit from it and my psychiatrist and I agreed it would be a good idea to focus on therapy.
Changing to citalopram
Another six months later, and events in my life had made things really hard and my mood got worse. Eventually my psychiatrist suggested I try citalopram, another antidepressant.
I wasn’t sure about taking this because I didn’t want it to have no effect like the last time I tried meds, but since I was older now, my psychiatrist thought it might be more successful.
When I started taking citalopram, I experienced the same side effects as before and wasn’t sure whether to carry on with them, but I did. After six to eight weeks, I began to notice a difference.
After being on this medication for five months, I feel that it has made a huge difference to my moods. I sometimes have ‘bad’ days, but the majority are good days. I still have impulsive thoughts every day but with help and support, I no longer feel the need to do anything harmful.
I have nearly finished my college course and am currently looking for jobs in health and social care. I honestly wouldn’t know what to do with myself if I wasn’t taking meds, but I still hope that one day I won’t need to take them anymore.
Questions about mental health medication?
If you would like to know more about the different types of mental health medication you could be prescribed, how they help and what the side effects could be, have a look at our guide to medications.