How I Learnt to Address My Repressed Anger

We all get angry, but sometimes we keep it in and and it builds up and impacts our mental health. Charlotte shares how she realised her anger was something she needed to address.

“Why do you never get angry”, is something I get asked a lot. It’s not that I don’t express anger, but I suppose I just don’t show it. 

When I explain to others that just like everyone else, I do get wound up, I do want to scream into my pillow or take my anger out on a bean bag, they don’t believe me. I have this habit where I keep it inside, so much so that a lot of it is repressed.

I have this habit where I keep it inside.

Growing up, I saw a lot of anger. I saw the way it affected other people and I knew how it made me feel.  Seeing someone heavily expressing their anger on me, made me  push any emotion I had like that to the deepest part of my mind.

I didn’t want to risk hurting anyone, but I ended up hurting myself.

Feeling angry is entirely normal, it’s a human emotion that helps us to understand who we are, what we like and what we don’t like. So, when you tell yourself that you are not allowed to use that emotion, it can be damaging to your own wellbeing.

Feeling angry is entirely normal

There are ways to let out your anger without creating that negative response that you avoid. You don’t need to attack another person.

I have a bad habit of not communicating to those around me when I feel angry. I will say and act like everything they do is absolutely fine, even if it is not. I can go years, letting a person hurt my feelings, stir my emotions and fuel my anger, but I will not show it.

But eventually, at some point, that frustration needs to come out and it tends to explode. My intention is to communicate how I’m feeling, but I lash out and become a person I don’t recognise. Honestly, it leaves my mental health at a low for days afterwards.

That frustration needs to come out and it tends to explode.

I have lost friends and people around me to my texts or rants that I have when I’m in an angry rage. Like the hulk, it’s a rage that consumes me and though it’s a part of me, it’s not who I am or who I want to be. If anything, when I’ve calmed down (which often happens rather fast), I am left in remorse and with intense guilt.

Anger is something that needs to be addressed, it needs to be listened too. I have learned how to communicate and mention my discomforts before it reaches boiling level. Sometimes just accepting that we don’t like something, and expressing that, can prevent a whole outburst.

It’s important to remember that honestly, anger does not need to be negative, it can help us communicate to others how we are feeling. We have the option to express anger in a way that isn’t aggressive or harmful; we don’t need to be afraid of showing our emotions because we don’t have to give them the power of controlling us.

Anger is something that needs to be addressed, it needs to be listened too.

Coping With Anger

Anger is a normal emotion and something we all feel. Sometimes though, you can feel angry and not know why, or find yourself getting angry a lot. If this is the case, it’s important you don’t ignore your anger, it might be trying to tell you that there are things going on that you need help with. Looking for the cause of your anger is the best way to start making sense of it.

For more tips and advice visit Find Help: Anger.

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